28 weeks, 3rd trimester!!!!

How far along? 28 weeks 4 days !!

Total weight gain/loss: last I checked up 7.4lbs.. haven't been able to weigh myself in a while

Maternity clothes? some maternity pants and mostly my normal tops still.. but now I've got a pregnancy back brace to help when I'm at work

Stretch marks? Two little red ones on my tummy.. other than the ones I've always had..

Sleep: not sleeping the greatest still.. 

Best moment this week: this morning when baby girl was moving around like crazy and gave me some really good kicks I felt from the outside!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach, dunky eggs, deer sausage, sushi, a normal sex life (but that's not exactly pregnancy related). Oh and now ground bologna like grandma used to make!

Movement: tons of movement, I feel her every day now. She's moving right now as a matter of fact!

Food cravings: sweets!!!

Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah

Have you started to show yet: Yes, I love wearing clothes that show off my bump!

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Size of baby:  she's about the size of a butternut squash!

Labor Signs: Nope, I did have some random braxton hicks though

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, moody moody!

Weekly Wisdom: growing pains suck!

Looking forward to: being able to sleep again, my baby shower!

How far along? 27 weeks 3 days .. third trimester starts this Sunday!

Total weight gain/loss: ha! I keep gaining and losing, just like when I wasn't pregnant. So I'm up 7.4lbs.. haven't been able to weigh myself this week

Maternity clothes? some maternity pants and mostly my normal tops 

Stretch marks? Ahh! One ugly little red one on my tummy! Grrrrr nothing else tho

Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain in my hips..  I really am having a hard time sleeping lately, it sucks!

Best moment this week: moving into our new apartment!!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach, dunky eggs, deer sausage, sushi, a normal sex life (but that's not exactly pregnancy related). Oh and now ground bologna like grandma used to make!

Movement: tons of movement, I feel her every day now. Today my kitty was sort of laying on my tummy purring and the baby kicked her a few time, it was so funny!

Food cravings: deer sausage, chocolate and peppermint, ground bologna. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah

Have you started to show yet: Yes, I love wearing clothes that show off my bump!

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Size of baby:  she's about the size of a Chinese cabbage!

Labor Signs: Nope, I did have some random braxton hicks though

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, moody moody!

Weekly Wisdom: don't drink a ton of water just before bed...

Looking forward to: being able to sleep again

26 weeks preggo

How far along? 26 weeks 2 days .. only 2 more weeks left of my 2nd trimester!

Total weight gain/loss: ha! I keep gaining and losing, just like when I wasn't pregnant. So I'm up 7.4lbs.. which is down from the 10.6 of a week or so ago

Maternity clothes? still one pair of maternity jeans and mostly workout pants. But I got a new pair of dress maternity pants, and I love them!

Stretch marks? Ahh! One ugly little red one on my tummy! Grrrrr

Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain in my hips.. it's been pretty bad lately. It doesn't help that we are still living at my grandfathers and he wakes us up in the middle of the night..

Best moment this week: we saw my tummy move/twitch when baby kicked me the other day! It was too cool and it made me laugh so hard!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach, dunky eggs, deer sausage, sushi, a normal sex life (but that's not exactly pregnancy related).

Movement: tons of movement, I feel her every day now. Today she's being shy I think.. 

Food cravings: deer sausage, taco bell for some odd reason..

Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah

Have you started to show yet: Yes and strangers are starting to notice that I'm actually pregnant and not just fat, lol My one manager actually kind of touched my tummy the other day, I don't think she meant to but she couldn't help it lol! Then my other manager actually asked me if she could touch, which was nice, but kind of awkward at the same time. Just because I'm not used to people touching me I guess.

Gender:  she's a girl! :)


Size of baby: she's an eggplant!

Labor Signs: Nope, I did have some random braxton hicks in the shower the other night, that HURT!

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, moody moody!

Weekly Wisdom: don't drink a ton of water just before bed...

Looking forward to: Our next ultrasound on Wednesday!!! Can't wait to see our little girl again!

25 weeks.. only 15 to go!

How far along? 25 weeks 

Total weight gain/loss: 10.4 lbs gain, but I've lost about 2 lbs

Maternity clothes? still one pair of maternity jeans and mostly workout pants. But I got a new pair of dress maternity pants, and I love them!

Stretch marks? Ahh! One ugly little red one on my tummy! Grrrrr

Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain in my hips.. it's been pretty bad lately

Best moment this week: when hubby felt baby move again! the look on his face was priceless!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach.. dunky eggs!! and now deer sausage.. and the usual sushi.

Movement: tons of movement, I feel her every day now

Food cravings: deer sausage!!!

Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah

Have you started to show yet: Yes and strangers are starting to notice that I'm actually pregnant and not just fat, lol

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Labor Signs: Nope, but I've been having cramping off and on...

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, I'm always moody lol

Weekly Wisdom: don't drink a ton of water just before bed...

Looking forward to: Our next ultrasound coming up and moving OUT!!!! Next week!!!!

Another sad Christmas

My grandfather has completly given up. It makes me so sad to see him struggle with the simplest things, and think about how strong he was just earlier this year. This morning I had to call EMS to get him up from the toilet. I was the only one home, and since hes so heavy I cant lift him. He refused to go to the hospital, and since his vitals are ok they couldnt take him against his will. It just teminds me of when grandma died a few years ago.. right before Christmas..

6 months pregnant!

How far along? 24 weeks (oops, guess I missed last week! Oh well, I'll just update for weeks 23&24)

Total weight gain/loss: 10.4 lbs gain total so far, not doing too bad!

Maternity clothes? still one pair of maternity jeans and mostly workout pants. I've been looking for more because I'm working now and none of my dress pants fit!

Stretch marks? Ahh! One ugly little red one on my tummy! Grrrrr

Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain in my hips.. yes still... I need a pregnancy pillow.. I've found one but haven't gotten it yet

Best moment this week: baby was really super active about 2 mornings ago! I felt her move a ton from the outside! It was awesome!

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach.. dunky eggs!! and now deer sausage.. and the usual sushi.

Movement: tons of movement up until yesterday when I think she decided to be lazy for a while, lol. 

Food cravings: everything sweet!

Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah

Have you started to show yet: Yes and strangers are starting to notice that I'm actually pregnant and not just fat, lol

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Labor Signs: Nope, but I've been having cramping off and on...

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, I'm always moody lol

Weekly Wisdom: stress is bad.. m'kay?

Looking forward to: Our next ultrasound coming up and moving OUT!!!!

Feeling blessed today..

So while I've been having an awful week, I sat back and tried to remind myself of my blessings.. I have 2 friends who have children with disabilities, rare ones. So far my baby is looking "structurally sound" and we have no reason to think there's anything wrong with her. I am so grateful for that! Some friends of ours just had their son at 37 weeks.. he only has one full arm, the other only developed to the elbow, there's either a missing kidney or a small/dysfunctional one (not sure I haven't heard back on the full details yet) and his intestines were protruding from his abdomen. Then when I asked how everything had gone with the delivery we were told there was more problems and that the baby was in the NICU undergoing more tests. We haven't heard anymore from our friends. I am so scared for them.. at about 15 weeks they thought they were going to lose him because of the abnormalities they had found. Their doctors thought the baby had Trisomy 18, which is very bad and usually results in a painful few days of life outside the womb followed by death. IF the baby makes it to delivery. Thankfully, that was not the case.. but now there's "more problems" and more tests.. I hope their little man is going to be okay, and even tho they aren't religious I pray for them every day. I figure it can't hurt.
I am so blessed that we didn't find anything wrong with our little one. Granted, we did not have any of the genetic tests done.. but there have been no indicators of a problem. And that's good enough for me for now. At least enough to count it as a blessing. I just hope my friends little blessing gets better and can go home soon.

22 weeks.. only 18 to go!

How far along? 22 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 8.4 lbs gain total so far, haven't weighed myself this week, tho last week I lost a lb..
Maternity clothes? one pair of maternity jeans since and mostly workout pants. I've been looking for more because I'm working now and none of my dress pants fit!
Stretch marks? No more than usual
Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain in my hips.. yes still... I need a pregnancy pillow
Best moment this week: kissing my husband and talking about when baby comes...
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach.. dunky eggs!! and now deer sausage.. and the usual sushi.
Movement: she's been kicking my bladder and pelvic floor a lot the past 5-6 days, other than that I haven't felt her much. I wish she'd move so that I can feel her from the outside again.
Food cravings: everything sweet!
Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat forward and out of the way, lol.
Gender:  she's a girl! :)
Labor Signs: Nope
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, I'm always moody lol
Weekly Wisdom: write stuff down.. otherwise you'll forget.
Looking forward to: we've got a dr appointment on Friday, but really seeing our little girl again at our next ultrasound! 

Twenty One Weeks!

How far along? 21 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 8.4 lbs gain total so far, haven't weighed myself this week though
Maternity clothes? one pair of maternity jeans since and mostly workout pants. I really haven't needed much else...
Stretch marks? No more than usual
Sleep: tossing and turning becuase of the pain inmy hips.. the past few nights I've had charlie horses in my hips, which are not fun.. at all...
Best moment this week: Oh my goodness! The night before last I felt our little girl from the OUTSIDE for the first time! It was awesome!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach.. dunky eggs!! .. and the usual sushi.
Movement: lots of flutters, more than last week :) And of course there was the kick I felt from the outside! :)
Food cravings: everything sweet!
Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat forward and out of the way, lol.
Gender:  she's a girl! :)
Labor Signs: No, but I think I've been having some braxton hicks..
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, probably b/c I haven't been getting as much sleep...
Weekly Wisdom: I guess just don't stress.. lol
Looking forward to: seeing our little girl again at our next ultrasound!

Halfway done!! Woohooo!!!

How far along? 20 weeks!!!!
Total weight gain/loss: 8.4 lbs gain total so far
Maternity clothes? Still only one pair of maternity jeans since and mostly workout pants. I can't wait for my "bump" to really pop!
Stretch marks? No more than usual
Sleep: more tossing and turning with the pain in my hips.. I've been considering a pregnancy pillow to replace my body pillow in the hopes that that will help
Best moment this week: I had a moment a few days ago, where I felt our little girl give some pretty strong movements right near my belly button. They were the strongest I've felt so far, and it actually made me cry!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything?  Sleeping on my stomach.. not waking up at 2:30 every single morning.. and the usual sushi.
Movement: lots of flutters this week!
Food cravings: everything sweet!
Anything making you queasy or sick: still string cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat forward and out of the way, lol.
Gender:  she's a girl! :)
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, probably b/c I haven't been getting as much sleep...
Weekly Wisdom: don't over do the sweets.. it causes issues..
Looking forward to: that first big kick and seeing our little girl again at our next ultrasound!
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For the past few days, it doesn't matter what I eat or how much I eat, I get sooo hungry after about an hour! It's crazy because prior to recently, I was doing really well with several hours between meals. Baby girl must be going through a growth spurt! I hope so because I am so ready for my bump to pop and to actually look pregnant instead of just fat. lol

Weekly update time!

How far along? 19 Weeks 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: 5.6 lbs gain but I haven't weighed myself today so that may be more.. lol
Maternity clothes? Still only one pair of maternity jeans since and mostly workout pants. I can't wait for my "bump" to really pop! And it's great that I can get out my winter sleepwear now!
Stretch marks? Other than the ones I started with, none. I really hope that I won't be adding more, I've got enough!
Sleep: more tossing and turning with the pain in my hips.. I've been considering a pregnancy pillow to replace my body pillow in the hopes that that will help
Best moment this week: Well, seeing our little girl last Wednesday was the best moment I've had in a long time!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything?  sushi, and feta.. and not having a ton of worries. Coffee and sleep are creeping up on my list too.
Movement: little flutters now and then, I can't wait to really feel that first kick!
Food cravings: salty and sweet this week. Especially cucumbers with salt! :)
Anything making you queasy or sick: String cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat forward and out of the way, lol.
Gender:  she's a girl! :)
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, probably b/c I haven't been getting as much sleep
Weekly Wisdom: eat whatever you're craving as long as it won't hurt you or the baby
Looking forward to: that first big kick and seeing our little girl again at our next ultrasound!

Our baby is a....

 We found out on Wednesday at our ultrasound that the precious baby in my belly is a GIRL!! We are both sooooooooo excited! Hubby was right! He kept saying "I feel girly" and sure enough! lol. We have names (2 to be exact) that we have been discussing.. we think we've settled on one for sure but I'm still not 100% sold. I don't know why.. for some reason I just can't get over the fact that one name we've had forever and the other pops in about a month ago and we're using the new one. I love both names a lot, so it's not like I don't like the one we've picked.. it's just I think I need to get used to it like I have with the other, lol. We're not announcing anything specific until she's born tho, so stay tuned to find out! ;) In the mean time, here's a pic of our precious little girl.

I am officially 5 months pregnant! :)

How far along? 18 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 5.6 lbs gain total, although I was up to 7 I guess I lost a few.. lol
Maternity clothes? Still only one pair of maternity jeans since and mostly workout pants. I can't wait for my "bump" to really pop!
Stretch marks? Other than the ones I started with, none. I really hope that I won't be adding more, I've got enough!
Sleep: lately I toss and turn because my hips hurt so badly, but I've also been sometimes sleeping kind of on my stomach which has been helping.
Best moment this week: Since today is the beginning of the week, and we have our ultrasound on Wednesday I'll have to with hold my remarks until then, because I'm sure that seeing our baby will be by far the best moment of the week!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything?  sushi, and feta.. and not having a ton of worries
Movement: little flutters now and then, although the movement has significantly lessened in the past week or so. I'm thinking Squishy is just being lazy.. at least I hope.
Food cravings: salty and sweet this week. Especially cucumbers with salt! :)
Anything making you queasy or sick: String cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat forward and out of the way, lol.
Gender prediction: Hubby's: Girl, Me: Boy
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, especially lately since grandpa is home from rehab. I hate to admit this, but I really can't stand living with him. He's just so frustrating! He is, however, in better spirits since they put him on an antidepressant so hearing him joke around on occasion is better than hearing him complain.
Weekly Wisdom: don't compare your pregnancy (especially your bump) to anyone else. I only makes you feel bad.
Looking forward to: finding out what our little Squishy is! Well, I know it's a baby, but you know! And we only have about 3 days left!!!
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I really tried to stay positive when I heard that grandpa was coming home. But unfortunately I couldn't. I just can't help but think that this is enough, we need to be in our own place again and soon. I need to be able to go to the bathroom without someone asking where I am. (Seriously, EVERY TIME I go to the bathroom, he asks Josh where I am) It's so annoying. Then, if Josh isn't in the room, he'll ask "where's Josh". It's like, really, do you need to know our every move? No, you don't. I just want to be left alone when I leave the room, is that so much to ask? I've tried to focus on the positives, but I think that the hormones have made that almost impossible. I mean, the man slurps his soup and his water. Always. And guess what food is just about the only food he wants to eat? Soup. I HATE sitting at the table with him during meals, it's so disgusting. I get that there will come a time in the near future that I will have to deal with more disgusting things (like poopy diapers and spit up) but it's different... Anyway, I just keep trying to remind myself that my grandfather has always tried his best for me, he loves me and I need to be as good to him as I can while we're here. 

Hello week 17!

How far along? 17 Weeks 2 days
Total weight gain/loss: 5.6 lbs gain total
Maternity clothes? One pair of maternity jeans since mine are soo uncomfortable. But I mostly wear workout pants, lol.
Stretch marks? Other than the ones I started with, none
Sleep: lately I toss and turn because my hips hurt so badly, and I've had more energy to stay up later!
Best moment this week: Feeling baby Squishy move. I've felt baby since about 14 weeks, but it's always so awesome!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach and sushi, and feta.
Movement: little flutters now and then
Food cravings: sweets!
Anything making you queasy or sick: String cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: Yes and no. Really the baby is just pushing fat out of the way, lol.
Gender prediction: Hubby's: Girl, Me: Boy
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, lol
Weekly Wisdom: drinking water gets boring but drinking pop is not the best answer.
Looking forward to: finding out what our little Squishy is! Well, I know it's a baby, but you know!

Hurray for 16 weeks!

How far along? 16 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 2.4 lbs gain total
Maternity clothes? One pair of maternity jeans since mine are soo uncomfortable. But I mostly wear workout pants, lol.
Stretch marks? Other than the ones I started with, none
Sleep: I pass out pretty good in the beginning of the night, but end up tossing and turning because my hips hurt so badly.
Best moment this week: Hearing the babies heartbeat at our doctor appointment on Friday and making the appointment for our ultrasound.
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach and sushi!
Movement: little flutters now and then
Food cravings: Lays plain potato chips!
Anything making you queasy or sick: String cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: hubby says that the bottom of my tummy has rounded out a bit, but since I'm already carrying weight in my stomach, I can't really see a bump.
Gender prediction: Hubby's: Girl, Me: Boy
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, lol
Weekly Wisdom: Spending time with friends in different situations is tricky.
Looking forward to: finding out what our little Squishy is! Well, I know it's a baby, but you know!

Tomorrow

We have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, just a check up. And hopefully we will get to schedule the fetal survey (aka GENDER SCAN!!!) I'm so excited, I really hope that my doctor will allow us an ultrasound at 18 weeks!! That would be wonderful, and sooner than 20 weeks! :) Anyway, baby looks more like a baby now, and I've been feeling these little flutters in my lower tummy and it makes me smile every time! It's so exciting! Although, my doctor will probably tell me tomorrow that the flutters are really just gas and I'm not feeling the baby at all... I still believe it's the baby, lol.

On a side note... I cannot believe how mean women can be online! I have been using Facebook's version of The Nest and The Bump (Mommyhood) for a long time. We have had squabblers but mostly the moderators keep things going smoothly. Well, we've found out that with an upcoming Facebook change, the forums will no longer be supported and we can't use them anymore. This makes many of us really sad since we go on there for advice and support. Well, I tell ya.. the true colors of people certainly come out when no one is making sure they're playing nice! These ladies swear and are calling people out, bringing up topics that have been soooooooo controversial and no one seems to care anymore about being civil! It's ridiculous! People sure do turn into children when not in face-to-face conversation!

So I'm totally in love with this gals blog idea!

She's blogging about her pregnancy, and has some really cute pics up along with the following questions/answers about her current week! I had to borrow it! 


How far along? 15 Weeks, 3 Days
Total weight gain/loss: 2.4 lbs gain as of this morning
Maternity clothes? One pair of maternity jeans since mine are soo uncomfortable. But I mostly wear workout pants, lol.
Stretch marks? Other than the ones I started with, none
Sleep: I pass out pretty good in the beginning of the night, but end up tossing and turning because my hips hurt so badly.
Best moment this week: Hmm.. hasn't happened yet, that would be hearing the babies heartbeat at our doctor appointment on Friday.
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach and sushi!
Movement: little flutters now and then
Food cravings: Lays plain potato chips!
Anything making you queasy or sick: String cheese.. blah
Have you started to show yet: hubby says that the bottom of my tummy has rounded out a bit, but since I'm already carrying weight in my stomach, I can't really see a bump.
Gender prediction: Hubby's: Girl, Me: Boy
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody, lol
Weekly Wisdom: Walk, walk, walk! It's the only thing that helps my hip pain
Looking forward to: finding out when our gender ultrasound will be!!

Stealing.. er.. Borrowing this from Ryanne since I am bored! :)

A. Age: 27

B. Bed size: Queen

C. Chore that you hate: um all of them?? no really, the bathroom!!!

D. Dogs: We don't own any, but I love huskies! 

E. Essential start to your day: Used to be coffee.. now it's just the thought of getting out of my house! lol

F. Favourite color: Green.

G. Gold or Silver: Silver or white gold.

H. Height: 5'3 1/2"

I. Instruments you play: Flute, piccolo, saxophone

J. Job title: Wife and incubator.. lol

K. Kids: furbaby; Snoopy and my little bun Squishy

L. Live: everyday all day

M. Mother's name: Mom

N. Nicknames: I don't really have one.. unless you count hubby's name for me.. Peep

O. Overnight hospital stays: when I almost died from having my tonsils removed

P. Pet peeve: Stupid, ignorant people. Ebonics. Oh and some of my classmates who bitch about the way my econ teacher teaches..  they won't man up and go talk to him and that irks me.

Q. Quote from a movie: I don't really have movie quotes.. but Futurama or Family Guy? Too many to count!

R. Right or left handed: Right

S. Siblings: 2 half sibs, one half sis, one half bro

T. Time you wake up: whenever I can't stand the pain in the hip I'm laying on, and it's too light out to sleep properly. Usually around 9am

U. Underwear: Jockey

V. Vegetable you hate: Hmm... I can't really think of one I hate, I haven't tried them all yet though...

W. What makes you run late: My genes. Thanks a lot mom!

X. X-Rays you've had: Mouth/teeth, abdomen, right hand

Y. Yummy food that you make: Hmmm I made beef stew tonight that was out of this world!

Z. Zoo animal: Any cat, penguins and the savanna animals!

Distractions...

So since I've been in need of a distraction lately.. I've taken an interest in Pinterest. Never heard of it? Neither had I until recently. I am in LOVE with this website! People use it to keep track of anything they want. If you find a recipe you want to try, you "pin" it and it shows up on the website in whatever folder you want to file it under. Then of course you can search the site to find things you might be interested in "pinning" for yourself. I have found sooooooo many recipes and craft ideas just from the website alone! I can't wait to try them all and new things pop up daily so I am going to be forever adding to my collection! You need an invite to get started, but if you request one from the site it'll arrive in your email within a few minutes and you can get started. You can also log in with Facebook or Twitter if you want to, which is nice so you don't have to remember yet another log in... This website is seriously the neatest thing since sliced bread and I highly suggest checking it out!
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Feeling lucky

So I'm not sure exactly how to count it.. by certain websites I am 13 weeks 2 days and still in my first trimester... by other websites I am 13 weeks 2 days and starting the second trimester.. and by one website I am 13 weeks 2 days but IN my 14th week and starting the second trimester. I looked it up and there is controversy as to when exactly each trimester starts. It all depends upon what method you use (fetal growth, LMP, or some other one I don't remember) Personally I like the idea of already being in the second trimester. It means we are that much closer to finding out if we are having a boy or a girl. I know in reality that I'm still only 13 weeks (2 days) so I'm no closer or farther from finding out the gender just because I consider myself in the second trimester as opposed to the first. But it makes me feel better. lol. Speaking of feeling better, I really haven't been feeling bad at all so far. No real morning sickness, thank God. Some queasiness .. a few food aversions but nothing major, some fatigue and sore bb's but again nothing major. I have been having cramping off and on since before I even conceived. Different kinds of cramps then and now of course. But my doc says that they'll likely come and go throughout my entire pregnancy. I understand what they are, my body is stretching in ways it hasn't had to before. They are still annoying and sometimes quite painful. Now I can't lay on my right side or on my back without getting cramps which really sucks because if I lay on my left for too long I get cramps in my hip (from the pressure) and my ear gets really sore. My doctor also suggested that sometimes the cramps may be from dehydration. Now this is a problem. Lately water has been tasting pretty gross to me. No matter how I drink it, in a glass with ice, from a cold water bottle, spring water, filtered water.. it doesn't matter it all tastes odd. I've tried brushing my teeth before drinking, not brushing my teeth before drinking it.. nothing seems to work. I wonder if it's just me or if this is an actual pregnancy symptom. Either way it makes me not want to drink water and that's bad! Of course I force myself, but I know I'm not drinking as much as I probably should be. Oh well.. at least I'm aware of it so that I can try to fix it. But yeah, so far those are the only real pregnancy symptoms I've had. I consider myself blessed to not have been sick every single day, really I do. I just wonder when I'm going to start feeling pregnant! LOL

Letting the cat out of the bag!

Today we got to tell my aunt, uncle and cousins about our little bundle of joy! They were all super excited for us. Then hubby texted one of his friends (so they wouldn't find out on Facebook. I tried to call everyone I could, but some didn't answer or return my call so there's nothing I could do about that..) But anyway we'd finally told everyone we could individually so I let the cat out of the bag and told Facebook. It's such a relief to make it this far into the pregnancy and to finally be able to tell everyone is a joy and relief as well!

The Bump

The Bump

Heartbeat and telling family

We did get to hear little squishy's heart beat yesterday through the doppler at my docs office. She said that if we couldn't hear it we would have an ultrasound. It took a few moments of prodding, but she finally found it really low on my abdomen (so low if was bordering on obscene!) But she found it and it's 164!! Don't get me wrong, I was happy just to hear it again but I kind of wanted the ultrasound so that I could see squishy too. I know, I know, I shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. I have another appointment for the end of this month but hopefully between now and then I will be able to borrow my friends doppler so I can hear the heartbeat whenever I want! :) Oh and one and a half more months and we should be finding out if squishy is a boy or a girl!! I wish I had an at home ultrasound machine. Hmm.. I wonder if I can find a reasonably priced on on Amazon...? lol.

Tomorrow we are having lunch with my aunt, uncle and cousin and we are going to tell them our good news. I'm so excited! I think that I will also be calling my grandma but I'd really like to tell her in person if I could. We'll see how the day goes.. that reminds me. I have to call and see if they are okay with the restaurant choice I made! Oops!

A doctors appointment

Today we have an appointment with my obgyn and hopefully we'll get to hear squishy's heartbeat again. I'm excited, but I'm also anxious because I haven't heard or seen my little squishy since 7 weeks. I guess that I'm worried that something might have happened in the past few weeks.. although I was told that after you see/hear the heartbeat the chance of miscarriage drops down to less than 5%. Which is great, but I'm still worried. I'm sure it's the same for all first time pregnant women, we worry over whether our precious little bundles are really okay and growing the way they're supposed to. We worry that since we cannot see our little one, or feel them yet that they might not be thriving. :sigh: I can't wait to talk to my doctor and find out for sure that my squishy is okay.

The second installment of a hormonal pregnant lady

Yesterday, while talking to my hubby, he made an unhappy facial gesture in reference to my mom. Now mom and I have had our differences, but she's been trying and so have I. So I burst into tears and tried (not sure how well) to ask my hubby to try harder to get along with my mom. She meddles and that bugs him to no end. Not to mention that mom isn't much help when asked for information (her's is generally very dated, either that or she offers no info just criticism...) but she's still one of the only people in my family that I talk to regularly, and well, she's my mom. So as long as I'm giving her yet another chance, I'm hoping that hubby can too. He really doesn't want to, but with all my crying I think he decided that he will put up with as much as he can.. for my sake. Which I appreciate. I just wish I hadn't been bawling when I asked him. So now I feel like I'm guilting him into something... although I'm sure he doesn't really see it that way. He knows I'm a hormonal mess.  Ha. What an understatement.

To top it off, my mom calls me sobbing last night. I can't go into details, but things on her end have gotten pretty serious and I'm afraid she's going to fall right back into her drinking. She's been doing so good up until this point. The worst part is I can't do a darned thing for her. So if you read this, could you please say a short prayer for us. I know I have been pretty vague on the details, but we'll take any prayer we can get. Thanks so much!

Being sick while pregnant is...

Not very fun. I have a head cold, and while that's probably not the worst thing that I could come down with, the past few days have been hell. Sinus headaches and aching sinuses and a runny yet stuffed up nose and not breathing well (especially in my sleep) and achy joints plus super tender skin (not to mention breasts) have all made me cranky to say the least. Not to mention the million other things I have on my plate right now. I'm surprised, however, that I have been able to sleep relatively normally the past few nights. I think it's because I've ditched the "trying to stay sleeping on my left side" for shifting positions again. Although I am a stomach sleeper, so I'm still not very comfortable... I'm sure it's only going to get worse before it gets better, lol. I've been told that I can take Tylenol and Sudafed, but I'm just so afraid of taking anything during the first trimester.. so afraid that during this most crucial developmental time, I'll take something and it will hurt my baby. I couldn't live with myself if that happened...
So I'm stuck being sick and pregnant. And I know I'm not alone, that many if not every mother has gone through this at some point. I just wish I could do something about it.

Hi, I'm a hormonal pregnant lady...

Yes, I am a hormonal pregnant lady. What? Really? I never would have thought that I of all people would be moody and hormonal. HA! Considering my PMS used to be wicked bad.. I knew poor hubby was in for a rocky road (mmm.. rocky road icecream sounds awesome right now!) ahem.. anyway, today was not the best day for me. Mostly little stuff really upset me but the icing on the cake was when I started the drive home and realized that I had a flat tire. First of all, I was driving hubby's car because grandpa had therapy and cannot get into his truck anymore, so I left my car at home for hubby to drive. Then I found out that grandpa didn't even go to therapy. That ticked me off because hubby's car doesn't have air conditioning and I was sweating like crazy. THEN I get a flat tire. Which wouldn't have happened if I had taken my own car. Well I pulled over to the side of the road and burst into tears. I ended up sobbing on the phone to my husband, the poor guy probably felt so bad and he didn't even do anything wrong! Thankfully, hubby is my hero and came to my rescue. He changed the tire like it was nothing (it actually took him a while because it was rusted, but he made it look easy!) He's so awesome to me. He always has been but especially now that we're expecting. Bursting into tears made me feel so stupid.. I usually get mad when I get a flat, not sad. lol. I'm sure tomorrow will be yet another adventure in the crazy hormone department. Woohoo!!!

An early look at our little squishy!

Last Wednesday I had an ultrasound so that we could figure out exactly how far along I am. My due date according to the ultrasound tech is March 18th.. only one day off from what I was figuring at March 17th! Crazy! Not only did we get to see our little squishy, but we got to see and HEAR the heart beat! Talk about a beautiful sound! Hubby was so excited and he now says that the heart beat is his favorite sound in the whole world. You know what? Me too. :)

The first of many...

Yesterday I had the first of many test that I will endure throughout this pregnancy. It was a blood test to determine my estimated date of conception. I got poked twice because apparently my veins are small and I'm sorry but that needle is NOT tiny. lol. When the tech told me for my full prenatal blood work they'd be taking 6 vials, my jaw about hit the floor. That's a lot of blood! But I've had 4 drawn before, so what's 2 more vials?
Oh and and and hubby got the job he recently interviewed for! So we will have health insurance in 2 months and one week!!!! That's very exciting. For the time being though, I am looking into getting on assistance just to help get us through the next 67 days. No, it's not ideal. Did I ever expect we'd need to be on assistance? NO. But I'll be damned if I wait to get prenatal care and something goes wrong. We have also found a clinic that supposedly does free ultrasounds. So I am looking into that to see if we can get our first one done before hubby starts work. My dr. wanted me to get one anyway, why not get it for free if we can? I'm so excited that things are actually starting to happen for us!

Doin' the HAPPY DANCE!!!!!!!!!!

So I am now totally doing the happy dance! The reason for this dance you ask? Well, not only did I ovulate last month (finally after 90 days!) but it would seem there's a BUN IN MY OVEN!!!!!! :) Yes, we happened to "time" things just right (even tho I had no idea really because I thought I O'ed before hand and just had lower temps this time..) So yes, today on 14 dpo I have my first BFP!

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! :dance: :dance: :dance:!

What is wrong with me lately??

So I just totally flipped out on my poor grandpa. He was talking to me AGAIN about covering up the hole in the wall that we can't actually repair until the termite people come and determine what they are going to do.. so I'm fed up hearing about it (partly my fault because I've been putting off covering the hole.. just my laziness) and I started getting huffy. Well he keeps on talking and I flat out flipped. Not quite yelling, but a little on the verge of shouting telling him we'll get it done RIGHT NOW and have it done and over with. His problem is he wants to explain everything again and again and again.. and I can only take so much repetition until I want to scream. SO poor hubby walks in and starts to say that the plastic we're going to cover the hole with isn't going to make it darker, and I half shouted at him to stop and just go get the plastic. I didn't want hubby changing grandpa's mind because then we'd be having a whole new discussion and I was completely fed up. Then once we covered the hole and I calmed down grandpa starts talking about looking for rest homes so that he's "not burdening us or causing fights." Total guilt trip and it totally worked. I broke down and cried and apologized and told him that I didn't mean to be hateful or hurtful that I was just frustrated and I know he's miserable sitting in that chair day in and day out but that he's slowly getting better and there's no need for a nursing home because he'll be in therapy for his shoulder soon and he can stay home.. especially after all this time. If he was going to go into a nursing home I wish he would have done it from the beginning.. but I didn't tell him that. So now I'm trying to make up for being such a mean bitch and trying to be patient and calm.
I knew when we moved in here that there would be tension.. I never knew it would be this bad. I try so hard NOT to flip out (I'm not a patient person by any means) because I know he doesn't like the situation he's in, and that he does try to think about us when he can. He's helping us out so much by letting us live here.. and I know we're helping him too by being here.. but I just can't be patient ALL the time, no matter how hard I try. I thought I was doing so well... And even mom agrees that grandpa can be a handful..

I hope that this isn't a sign from God that I shouldn't have kids or something. I mean, how do impatient, quick to get angry people do it?? Yes, kids are a little different than my grandpa, but still.

So severe mood swings today.. and even yesterday a little. But yesterday it was a swing from bored/tired to super hyper and bouncy. Sounds bi-polar I know! I just wish I knew what the heck is going on with me lately! Grr..

No happy dance...

Soooooo I'm not doing a happy dance... yet. And I'm still not sharing why just yet. Hopefully though, I will be able to share soon. Don't feel bad. I'm actually waiting too. <_< don't read too far into that! lol

I wrote this back in March...

I wrote this back in March of this year and I'm not quite sure why it didn't make it onto my blog until now.. Anyway here goes...

I really don’t understand these feelings. It’s not like I need a baby right now. I’m in the end stages of getting into one of the most competitive programs at Owens. I’m being evaluated this month and if I get in it means lots and lots of extra work, hard work. But all I can think about is how Abby gets to be pregnant again. How Ashley is pregnant again... and here I am wishing I was pregnant at all. Damn irregular cycle. If my stupid body would be normal for once I wouldn’t be as upset…  At least I don’t think that I would be. I sure as hell wouldn’t be thinking I was pregnant if I had had my damn period last month. But being 3 weeks late and having 5 negative pregnancy test I’m pretty sure I just didn’t ovulate last month and so didn’t have a period. This freaks me out because that could mean that we will have trouble getting pregnant when we do start trying. I don’t want to wait years like some women do.. a couple months is fine.. a year maybe but years? I’m going to be 28 this year I can’t afford to wait for years. What the hell am I saying? People wait till their mid-30’s to 40 to have kids now a days. Why can’t I afford to wait? Monetarily of course I can wait. Emotionally, probably not but that’s selfish really. Honestly if I think about it, I’m feeling my biological clock ticking away and wondering if I’ll ever actually get to have a baby of my own. Sure I’m “still young.” Doesn’t mean anything to me really. I mean who knows, I could go through early menopause since I started my period so young.

What I don’t get is one minute I’m cool, it’s okay that we’re waiting because we don’t have insurance, don’t want to rely on government assistance, neither of us are working and we live in a small 2 bedroom apartment. I want to change these things before we have kids. Surely I can wait for that right? No because the next day I start freaking out about all that we have yet to accomplish, and how long those things will actually take us.. it could be years before we’re in a house. Oh my God, why would I want to wait that long to start my family? Josh is excited too, but thankfully he’s thinking with a little more clarity. He knows that no matter how much we want a baby right now, it’s just not the best time. But everyone I talk to tells me that there is never a “best time” or “right time” to have kids and if we wait for that then we’ll never have kids. We’ve already pushed up having kids from both of us working to just Josh working to when Josh finds out he’s hired!! I mean, I want to push for now, but I know I shouldn’t. I won’t because of those days when I realize that we have no money, insurance or space. There could be a mold issue in the spare room.. something that I will NOT subject a child to.

I can’t stand waiting though. Not with everyone around me being pregnant. It’s making things so much worse. I was fine until 4 friends announced they are pregnant this year. Mind you, I found out about all four of them in 2 months. That was bad enough, then adding to it the fact that I’m late really doesn’t help. I’m sure every woman who wants to be a mom goes through feelings like this at some point. Unless they already have kids. I know that kids are hard work. Hard work and a lot of money. So what? So what that I have to work even harder while I’m pregnant because I’m just so exhausted? So what that I will go to work tired from lack of sleep rather than just not being a morning person? I fully believe that being a parent will be the greatest accomplishment of my life. Hopefully I will get to become a parent in the next few years. One way or another Josh and I will have children. Even if we have to adopt, tho I’m realizing now that if that is the road we must take, I’m going to be an absolute emotional wreck for quite some time before we adopt. Not being able to bear children is quickly becoming a fear of mine, and it wasn’t before. That means that if I am not actually able to, I’m going to succumb to a great sadness. But I don’t want to think about that anymore. For now, I just want a baby. No, I want to be pregnant… we aren’t ready for a baby yet.   

Bad luck bad day...

So the interview was a bust.. Among other things, there was a language barrier (manuals in French and German.. hubby only speaks English right now..) I don't know why on earth they interviewed him if they knew they needed someone with foreign language experience. Grr. To make things worse I can tell hubby is really bummed. So when he asked if we could go to his favorite sub joint for lunch I said sure. Well, now I've got to wait on a call from my mom b/c her gas got turned off and she's at work and can't meet the guy who's going to come turn it on. The gas company gives a 30 minute notice on when they'll be there, so I've got to run over to her house and let them in.. but this all means that we can't go to lunch b/c the sub joint is 30 min away... so it would be really bad if I get the call on the way there/back or while we're eating.. so hubby is bummed more about that.

To top off the day, I've got baby on the brain BIG TIME today. No job = no money = no insurance = no trying for baby yet. GRRRR. I need to get out of this house and concentrate on something else for like 3 months!

Edit: so I got this idea from a fellow blogger and nestie to throw ourselves a "pity party" last night. I wanted to cheer hubby up, so I went to the dollar store and got some Hawaiian/luau type stuff and decorated the front room with them. I also got some glow stick bracelets and two plastic wine goblets that have monkeys on them. We got Hawaiian pizza for dinner and played cards till it got dark enough to really see the glow sticks. Then we played ring toss for like two hours! In the dark! It was awesome! It ended up being a really fun, relaxing night! And just what we needed.

Cross your fingers for us!

So tomorrow hubby has an interview with a company right down the street from where we live! I'm so excited for him.. but cautiously so. Everything has been so stressful lately and hubby getting this job would mean so much. Health insurance, saving money for a home.. being able to start trying for a baby... all the good things we have on hold right now. I just keep telling myself that there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel.... even though lately all I've been seeing is darkness.

A restful stay [in] the hospital

Friday my grandpa was having a very hard time breathing. Bad enough he decided he needed to go to the er. So we took him. Apparently, congestive heart failure causes trouble breathing and low potassium which causes other problems.. like renal insufficiency. Not good. So they admitted him and kept him up until this evening. Now I love my grandfather like he was my father. He helped raise me from little on.. but the past month taking care of him has been hard on me and my husband. So this weekend away from grandpa was a much needed break. Grandpa got the medication he needed, and wonderful care at the hospital and hubby and I got to be loud and silly and relax at home.. or where ever it was we decided we wanted to go. I needed this break so badly. I am sorry that grandpa had to go to the hospital. BUT I had never heard of this hospital until he had rotator cuff surgery last month. The more experience I have with this hospital, the more I want to work there. The staff are wonderful! Everyone I've come into contact with has been super nice and taken lots of time with us to explain everything and answer all our questions with patience and kindness. I really hope I get the chance to work there someday.. Anyway, grandpa is on a very strict diet now, his fluids are restricted as well as his activity. This is not good, as he was already restricting his activities. I'm afraid if he just sits all day every day and does nothing... that he's going to fade away... and I don't want that. I miss my get-up-and-go grandpa.. the one who was always out and about, spending time at the local VFW with his buddies, or helping out with their fundraisers... but I guess those days are over now. So sad...

Looks like something...

I'm about to do a happy dance, but I'm not willing to write why just yet. I don't want to jinx myself. So after a while, I will write again to tell you (whomever you may be) what I'm hoping to do a happy dance for.

So hubby has been really helpful lately, and that's great especially since grandpa has been excruciatingly frustrating! My mom came over Sunday, which you would think would be a big help.. not so much. I had another breakdown too. Mostly because my mom still doesn't listen to me. I asked her a simple question, she answered and I proceeded to tell her why I asked. I never asked her advice or for criticism, but she gave it anyway. Told me I shouldn't worry about my irregular cycles because I'm not supposed to be trying to get pregnant in our current situation. Well, no shit mom, I just want to figure things out so that when we do start trying we don't have to do a ton of waiting while we figure things out. She wouldn't even let me get that sentence out. Then she told me I should have had the irregular periods taken care of in high school. High school?!?! Are you kidding me? I went to the Dr. and got on birth control, I thought that WAS the fix for it.. how was I to know it was temporary... no one told me! So then mom found out that I'm no longer on the pill... can we say irrational response? I know I can! She flipped. Not kidding. Then I told her why I went off them, the price ($78!) She told me to go to the health dept. downtown. That's fine, if I want to have some strange guy check out my who-ha and no, I don't. Plus I don't want to lose my current Dr. She's awesome and I don't want to get bumped as a patient. I guess if I was really really serious about figuring out what's going on with my cycles I'd go to the health dept. But it's not helpful for my mother to flip out on me about it. Anyway, needless to say after this "motherly" conversation, I retreated to the basement to bawl my eyes out to hubby. Poor guy, it's the third time I've had to do that since April. While that might not seem like a lot, it is for me. I'm usually more calm and I especially don't like to cry in front of anyone. Even hubby. I just don't like being that vulnerable.

Anyway, the evening ended really well, despite the rough start. We all had dinner and sat at the table laughing and joking and speaking Spanglish.. I need the laughs and I'm really glad that I was able to let go of the hurt from earlier enough to sit and laugh and enjoy time with my family. And that's one thing that I can say for certain is something hubby has taught me. I knew I married him for a reason!