She's here!

I will post my birth story and all the fun details later.. I just wanted to let you all know that Abigail has made her debut! I was induced, a decision I might not make again but all in all we ended up with a beautiful baby girl and I am just so in love! We are home and struggling a little at night, but thankfully hubby is home with me till Friday so we have a little time to work things out. I am so sore and going potty HURTS. Every time.. that part sucks because I know I have to keep up on my fluids... but anyway, my baby girl is so precious and hubby and I just stare at her sometimes and are so in awe of what we did. :) I love her more than I ever thought I could love someone.

Induction looming...

So it looks like I'm being induced Thursday morning... I don't know exactly how I feel about this. I am excited to finally be meeting my little girl but on the other hand I really didn't want to be induced and am scared because my cervix isn't exactly "favorable" according to my Dr. Tomorrow I am going to have prostaglandin gel placed to try to ripen my cervix and make it so that the foley bulb they use to dilate me will work better. My Dr. said that at least she can get her finger in there, which is good and that my cervix is thinner (as opposed to thick) which is good. SO I have made progress, just not quite enough. I was fine leaving the Dr.s office, and talking to hubby about his preference on what day we should go in... but then we met for dinner and I almost had a panic attack. I started crying as soon as I saw him (not sure why he triggered it) and had to excuse myself to the restroom before the waitress saw and thought I was nuts or something. Anyway I talked it over with hubby and started feeling a little better.. but I still feel that if I think too much about it I'm going to have a panic attack for sure. It's all the unknowns.. the thought of being in pain and inflicting it upon myself... the thought that induced contractions can be so much more painful than natural ones... wondering when I'll be able to get my epidural and if I'll be one of those unlucky ones that it doesn't work for... hoping and praying that I don't have to suffer through hours and hours of labor only to end up with a c-section... then there's all the crap that's going to hit once the baby is born (mainly my mom and hubby not getting along...) I've been trying to think of it the other way, that once all the labor and pain is over I'll have a beautiful little girl to hold. But the thought of being responsible for a tiny life is scary. I'm thankful I don't have to do it alone, and while I knew what I was getting into as far as the responsibility when we got pregnant... I don't think I understood the full weight of what becoming parents really means. I still don't.. it's another unknown that scares me. I need to get over this quick because I'm going to be a mom on Friday....

Dinner!!!

Waited too long to eat dinner tonight.. but I made the most delicious nachos! I figured I'd better indulge now before the baby comes because after I won't have the time to make my yummy nachos. And I didn't cheat by buying precooked chicken! I cooked the chicken with some yummy spices, sliced it and put it on top of whole wheat tortilla chips, shredded up some pepper jack cheese heated it all up and put both black and green olives on along with salsa. It was soooooooo good! I wish hubby had been home so I could have made some for him.. but alas he's at school tonight. :( Poor guy. At least he'll get a break from that when the baby is here!

Officially over due

Today I am 40+2, officially over due. I'm not as upset as I thought I would be. I'm scared to give birth, so I guess that waiting a few more days to do it isn't such a bad thing.. but I'm also scared to become a mother... like really scared. So putting that off a few more days isn't a bad thing either. lol.  I know that eventually things will fall into place, I will start to learn my baby's cues and be able to respond appropriately to them. I will make diaper changes look easy. Breastfeeding remains to be seen as I know some women simply are not able to, but I plan to try and try and try and breastfeed as long as I possibly can. In the beginning... I don't think I'll feel this way. I think I'll be sleep deprived and scared and worry over every little thing. I think I'll cry a lot and be even more scared when hubby goes back to work. I'm so glad he's able to take off a whole week from work to be with us.. as opposed to his original 2 days. I wish we were wealthy so that we could both stay home as long as we'd like with our little girl. I'm sure hubby feels the same way. Anyway, it looks like I'll be getting induced either Thursday or Friday. I have an appointment with my Dr. tomorrow to hash out the details. I can't believe that a week from now I'll be home with a little baby.. it's crazy.

It's my DUE date!!! :)

How far along? 40 weeks! And no sign of baby girl!

Total weight gain/loss: my scale 11.2lbs!! Dr. scale 12.3lbs...

Maternity clothes?: same as always, a few things but nothing major. I've gotten a few nursing tops to make things easier on me when baby girl finally comes.

Stretch marks? Still just the 3 ugly ones on the bottom of my tummy.

Sleep: This past week has been good. (That's going to change after Wednesday I'm sure since it looks like I'm getting induced Thursday) Last night was horrible I got up 4-5 times to go to the bathroom and had lots of crampy contractions.. the night before I had contractions for like 4 hours and they kept waking me up! But they eventually went away.. :(

Best moment this week: spending more time with hubby and being able to walk in warmer weather! We also finally got the babies room almost complete! And got a ton of other stuff done around the apartment!

Have you told family and friends: Yes! It's kind of hard to lie about it now!

Miss Anything?  sex!!! Sugar.. eating what I want when I want.. although the past few days I've been bad..

Movement: Tons of movement everyday since our trip to L&D

Food cravings: an ice cold regular Coke sounds sooo good, and ice cream 

Anything making you queasy or sick: STILL string cheese... lol

Have you started to show yet: Yes though I'm still feeling awfully small.. I keep getting comments when I'm out "oh how long do you have left?" "I'm due the 18th" "oh... wow you're really small!"

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Size of baby:  At my last ultrasound she was 5lbs 5oz and we couldn't tell her length.. supposedly this week she's the size of a small pumpkin! We'll find out soon enough!

Labor Signs: Nothing definitive.. I've been having contractions, but they don't stick around long enough to send me into labor and delivery. Though my braxton hicks have started to come with crampy contractions, which never happened before. 

Belly Button in or out? In, and I don't think it's going to ever pop!

Wedding rings on or off? On and still slide around, it's crazy!

Happy or Moody most of the time: Still basically happy, tho sometimes I'm feeling moody, I guess it all depends on the day. I'm not miserable in any way, unlike a lot of ladies I've known at their 40 week mark. Sure I'm sore, but I can still sleep. I have painful contractions but they don't last long and so I'm pretty much feeling good.

Looking forward to: Well.. meeting my baby girl is top on the list, but I'm still holding out hope for my Dr. being able to perform a sweep on Tuesday when I see her next. Hopefully it will send me into labor by late Thursday/Friday! 

A trip to labor and delivery..

Took a trip to labor and delivery today.. I had not really felt baby alllll day. A few little pops here and there but nothing like her normal movement and no where near as frequent. Yes I know that she's running out of room but just yesterday she was movin' and groovin' and the difference in not even 24 hours was scaring me. I tried ice cold water and laying on my left side.. nothing. I ate lunch.. nothing. So I called my dr and since it was later in the day she was almost ready to leave so they told me if I was concerned to go into L&D. Better safe than sorry for sure! I waited a little while till hubby got home from work (was only about 30 more min) and while I waited I packed his hospital bag and added a few last minute things to mine. Just in case. We got there, I got hooked up to the monitors and about 10 minutes later she stared moving more like herself. Thank GOD. But as I'm laying there they had a blood pressure cuff on me and my bp was high. Really high for me. So I asked them about it and they decided that since it was looking high they were going to keep monitoring it for a while. It got up to 140/94 and I freaked a little. But it was all over the place and the on call dr from my dr's practice decided that since it was lower more often than higher (still high for me) they were going to let me go. I have an apt with my dr. tomorrow anyway so I'm sure we will be talking about it. I don't have any other signs of preeclampsia so they weren't tooooo worried. I'm glad I went in, it gave me peace of mind... I thought I was going to feel stupid, but I think I'd have felt much worse if I didn't go in and there was really something wrong.

Holy Contractions Batman!

So I went to Target to finish getting things from my registry and walked around way too long.. started getting a few crampy contractions and decided it was time to leave. On the way home i went to babies r us bc the contractions went away and i was just feeling sore. Then i get home and start cooking dinner... and its just been building ever since. my back is constantly hurting, its not like a timeable contraction. And it does wrap around front like period cramps.. lo is moving quite a bit too. I finally sat down and its slowly resolving to a less intense pain but its still there and it hurts! i wonder if this could be the start of something good... or just more "practice".... ugh

One more week to go!

How far along? 39 weeks! Baby girl better be getting ready!

Total weight gain/loss: my scale 10.4lbs, dr.s scale 13.2lbs.. ?? 

Maternity clothes?: a few maternity pants and shirts but mostly all my own stuff. I need new underwear but I refuse to buy any more until after the baby

Stretch marks? Still just the 3 ugly ones on the bottom of my tummy.

Sleep: Good and bad, lately it's been pretty good. I'm betting that will change soon...

Best moment this week: spending more time with hubby and being able to walk in warmer weather!

Have you told family and friends: Yes! It's kind of hard to lie about it now!

Miss Anything?  sex!!!

Movement: still everyday thank goodness!

Food cravings: an ice cold regular Coke sounds sooo good, and ice cream 

Anything making you queasy or sick: STILL string cheese... lol

Have you started to show yet: Yes though I'm still feeling awfully small..

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Size of baby:  At my last ultrasound she was 5lbs 5oz and we couldn't tell her length.. supposedly this week she's the size of a small watermelon!

Labor Signs: Nothing definitive.. I've been having contractions, but they don't stick around long enough to send me into labor and delivery

Belly Button in or out? In, and I don't think it's going to ever pop!

Wedding rings on or off? On and still slide around, it's crazy!

Happy or Moody most of the time: Still basically happy, tho sometimes I'm feeling moody, I guess it all depends on the day.

Looking forward to: my next dr. appointment.. hopefully I can have my sweep done so that we can start rocking and rolling...

Progress is progress... right?

So at my dr appointment today I decided to ask for a membrane sweep. That is, if it was possible. My dr had no problem doing it.. the problem came when she checked me and found that I was still high and closed. Boo. Baby girls head is at -2 station, which is better than being at -5 for sure and I am 50% effaced. So there's progress! Just not enough to be able to perform the sweep. We talked about setting an induction date today.. I really don't want to be induced, but if I have to be I'd like it to be on a Thursday or Friday so that hubby can have 2 weekends and a whole week with us. My dr. said that would be just fine and we talked about the 22nd which is only 3 days away from my being 41 weeks. It would be nice to schedule it that way and actually go into labor on my own.. I hope I'll go by my due date to be completely honest, but I know better. First time moms aren't usually that lucky. lol

Tired and crampy

I'm tired but I don't want to go to bed...
I keep having braxton hicks, unlike last night when I was having very real contractions. They were irregular but quite painful at times. Tonight has just been the painless kind, mixed with a little cramping. I can't wait to see my Dr. Wednesday. Hopefully I've made progress and I can ask her about a membrane sweep to see if we can't get things going. I still think I'll end up going past my due date. So far I'm not terribly miserable so really 3 more weeks instead of 2 doesn't sound so bad. So long as my little girl is doing alright in there, she can bake a week longer. At 41 weeks my Dr. said she's going to induce me... The only thing that makes me even remotely excited about that option is that I may be able to set the date so that hubby gets the maximum time off ( if I choose to be induced on a Friday, he'll have two weekends and a week off in between) which will make me very happy. We'll see. I still want her to come on her own. Any time before March 25th little girl, but preferably by the 18th ;)

38 weeks and still going strong!

How far along? 38 weeks! Baby girl can come on out anytime now!

Total weight gain/loss: Still only about 10lbs up. But at my last appt I was up 12 .. I still don't trust the dr.s scale..

Maternity clothes?: Same as always, a few pants and tops.. but mostly my own clothes. I'm currently on the hunt for nursing tops :)

Stretch marks? Still just the 3 ugly ones on the bottom of my tummy.

Sleep: I've been doing alright for the most part, but several mornings I get up around 4 or 5 and am up for a few hours. Friday night I tried to sleep in bed with hubby for the first time in several months.. made it a few hours, but had to retreat back to the couch after that. I was miserable the rest of that night. 

Best moment this week: Taking hubby to the art museum for the first time! We had such a nice day yesterday, I just wish I could have made it through the entire museum. 

Have you told family and friends: Yes! And they're starting to ask if I've popped yet.. it's already getting annoying, lol.

Miss Anything?  sex, not being sore or swollen "down there" for no good reason, lol.

Movement: still everyday and she's changed her routine yet again! She's now a squirmer every time I roll over in the middle of the night! Quiet in the afternoons and active again in the evening.

Food cravings: an ice cold regular Coke sounds sooo good, and ice cream 

Anything making you queasy or sick: STILL string cheese... lol

Have you started to show yet: Yes though I'm still feeling awfully small..

Gender:  she's a girl! :)

Size of baby:  At my last ultrasound she was 5lbs 5oz and we couldn't tell her length.. supposedly this week she's the size of a pumpkin! 

Labor Signs: None yet. I have a feeling I'm going to go right up to 41 weeks. :(

Belly Button in or out? In, and I don't think it's going to ever pop!

Wedding rings on or off? On and still slide around, it's crazy!

Happy or Moody most of the time: content I guess. I have moments of moodiness now but for the most part I'm holding strong with mostly happy. I'm anxious and nervous and such too tho.

Looking forward to: meeting my little girl!

Anxious...

So even though we have a ton of stuff for our new little girl, I still feel totally unprepared. I think our house needs to be cleaned and re-organized and then cleaned again.. but I don't have any safe cleaning products that are strong enough. I feel so bad asking hubby to clean after he works hard all week... I should really ask for someone to come over and help, but I hate asking people to put their lives on hold to help me when I should be capable of cleaning my own damn house! I'd love to get an organizer here to help me find better ways of organizing all our stuff. AND the nursery still isn't ready and I know I'm not going to want to do it after the baby is born. We've only got about 2 weeks left (3 if baby girl decides to stay in until 41 weeks..) and there's just too much to do and not enough energy or time in the day to do it all. Grrr...