The Bump

The Bump

Heartbeat and telling family

We did get to hear little squishy's heart beat yesterday through the doppler at my docs office. She said that if we couldn't hear it we would have an ultrasound. It took a few moments of prodding, but she finally found it really low on my abdomen (so low if was bordering on obscene!) But she found it and it's 164!! Don't get me wrong, I was happy just to hear it again but I kind of wanted the ultrasound so that I could see squishy too. I know, I know, I shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. I have another appointment for the end of this month but hopefully between now and then I will be able to borrow my friends doppler so I can hear the heartbeat whenever I want! :) Oh and one and a half more months and we should be finding out if squishy is a boy or a girl!! I wish I had an at home ultrasound machine. Hmm.. I wonder if I can find a reasonably priced on on Amazon...? lol.

Tomorrow we are having lunch with my aunt, uncle and cousin and we are going to tell them our good news. I'm so excited! I think that I will also be calling my grandma but I'd really like to tell her in person if I could. We'll see how the day goes.. that reminds me. I have to call and see if they are okay with the restaurant choice I made! Oops!

A doctors appointment

Today we have an appointment with my obgyn and hopefully we'll get to hear squishy's heartbeat again. I'm excited, but I'm also anxious because I haven't heard or seen my little squishy since 7 weeks. I guess that I'm worried that something might have happened in the past few weeks.. although I was told that after you see/hear the heartbeat the chance of miscarriage drops down to less than 5%. Which is great, but I'm still worried. I'm sure it's the same for all first time pregnant women, we worry over whether our precious little bundles are really okay and growing the way they're supposed to. We worry that since we cannot see our little one, or feel them yet that they might not be thriving. :sigh: I can't wait to talk to my doctor and find out for sure that my squishy is okay.

The second installment of a hormonal pregnant lady

Yesterday, while talking to my hubby, he made an unhappy facial gesture in reference to my mom. Now mom and I have had our differences, but she's been trying and so have I. So I burst into tears and tried (not sure how well) to ask my hubby to try harder to get along with my mom. She meddles and that bugs him to no end. Not to mention that mom isn't much help when asked for information (her's is generally very dated, either that or she offers no info just criticism...) but she's still one of the only people in my family that I talk to regularly, and well, she's my mom. So as long as I'm giving her yet another chance, I'm hoping that hubby can too. He really doesn't want to, but with all my crying I think he decided that he will put up with as much as he can.. for my sake. Which I appreciate. I just wish I hadn't been bawling when I asked him. So now I feel like I'm guilting him into something... although I'm sure he doesn't really see it that way. He knows I'm a hormonal mess.  Ha. What an understatement.

To top it off, my mom calls me sobbing last night. I can't go into details, but things on her end have gotten pretty serious and I'm afraid she's going to fall right back into her drinking. She's been doing so good up until this point. The worst part is I can't do a darned thing for her. So if you read this, could you please say a short prayer for us. I know I have been pretty vague on the details, but we'll take any prayer we can get. Thanks so much!

Being sick while pregnant is...

Not very fun. I have a head cold, and while that's probably not the worst thing that I could come down with, the past few days have been hell. Sinus headaches and aching sinuses and a runny yet stuffed up nose and not breathing well (especially in my sleep) and achy joints plus super tender skin (not to mention breasts) have all made me cranky to say the least. Not to mention the million other things I have on my plate right now. I'm surprised, however, that I have been able to sleep relatively normally the past few nights. I think it's because I've ditched the "trying to stay sleeping on my left side" for shifting positions again. Although I am a stomach sleeper, so I'm still not very comfortable... I'm sure it's only going to get worse before it gets better, lol. I've been told that I can take Tylenol and Sudafed, but I'm just so afraid of taking anything during the first trimester.. so afraid that during this most crucial developmental time, I'll take something and it will hurt my baby. I couldn't live with myself if that happened...
So I'm stuck being sick and pregnant. And I know I'm not alone, that many if not every mother has gone through this at some point. I just wish I could do something about it.

Hi, I'm a hormonal pregnant lady...

Yes, I am a hormonal pregnant lady. What? Really? I never would have thought that I of all people would be moody and hormonal. HA! Considering my PMS used to be wicked bad.. I knew poor hubby was in for a rocky road (mmm.. rocky road icecream sounds awesome right now!) ahem.. anyway, today was not the best day for me. Mostly little stuff really upset me but the icing on the cake was when I started the drive home and realized that I had a flat tire. First of all, I was driving hubby's car because grandpa had therapy and cannot get into his truck anymore, so I left my car at home for hubby to drive. Then I found out that grandpa didn't even go to therapy. That ticked me off because hubby's car doesn't have air conditioning and I was sweating like crazy. THEN I get a flat tire. Which wouldn't have happened if I had taken my own car. Well I pulled over to the side of the road and burst into tears. I ended up sobbing on the phone to my husband, the poor guy probably felt so bad and he didn't even do anything wrong! Thankfully, hubby is my hero and came to my rescue. He changed the tire like it was nothing (it actually took him a while because it was rusted, but he made it look easy!) He's so awesome to me. He always has been but especially now that we're expecting. Bursting into tears made me feel so stupid.. I usually get mad when I get a flat, not sad. lol. I'm sure tomorrow will be yet another adventure in the crazy hormone department. Woohoo!!!

An early look at our little squishy!

Last Wednesday I had an ultrasound so that we could figure out exactly how far along I am. My due date according to the ultrasound tech is March 18th.. only one day off from what I was figuring at March 17th! Crazy! Not only did we get to see our little squishy, but we got to see and HEAR the heart beat! Talk about a beautiful sound! Hubby was so excited and he now says that the heart beat is his favorite sound in the whole world. You know what? Me too. :)