What sucks about being done

You know, my husband and I have decided we're done having kids.  I'm mean done done... like he's already had a vasectomy done.  And I'm totally on board with that,  even tho in my heart I'd still welcome an oopsie. I love this baby phase.  But I struggled with infertility and getting pregnant so long that I think it would be nearly impossible to have an oops. Then there's today.  I've almost never had the good signs of ovulation,  not even done
While on medication to make me ovulate.  But yesterday and today I've had glaringly obvious ovulation signs.  Today just for fun I took an opk and it was positive.  Now I'm having the WORST ovulation pain!  It's ridiculous,  and while I know we are done... its making me want to try for another.  I mean,  I'd been tracking this stuff for years and now finally my body is doing something it's supposed to be doing,  something I'd been waiting for and I can not do anything about it.  Nothing but sit here and be in pain knowing that egg will not become anything... its such an odd thing.  You don't think about it though Any cycle most of your life,  until you ttc... or try not to.  I'd be crazy to have another baby so soon. I'd probably lose my mind with the hormones.  I know I'm done. It's just hard to accept.

Happy Baby

Archer is the happiest baby ever. He really doesn't cry unless he's tired/hungry or having a clingy day and I walk into the other room. While that seems like a lot, it's really not. He's pretty happy go lucky and is quite often quietly observing everything around him. He loves to smile at us and love love loves his sissy. She's pretty head over heels for him too, it's cute.

Archer has gone through a growth spurt lately and is getting so big! I don't know specifics at the moment but I do know he no longer fits on my lap the way he did just a few weeks ago. He's sitting up and playing with toys, and I've even seen him scooting backward just a little. I cannot wait to see what else he will be doing next!

7 months!!

2 weeks ago baby boy was 17lbs 12oz 27inches long and had his very first shot. He did great! Archer is such a happy baby and loves me and daddy and sissy so much! He giggles, rolls front to back and back to front, is eating lots of different solids but still taking about 4oz bottles every 2 hours or so. He sleeps in his crib and is, for the most part, sleeping through the night.  We went to the zoo for the first time the other day and even though it was really hot he did super well. He's starting to sit up on his own more and more and it looks like he'll be army crawling/scooting here soon. He loves to blow raspberries and stick his tongue out. He's had the same 2 teeth since 3 months and while I think he's teething now, there's no obvious sign of teething coming in yet. I love this little guy just oh so much!

I've been dealing with post partum depression and anxiety and have been put on a low dose medication for it. Can't say it's made things perfect, but it certainly has taken the edge off. I've gained back all the weight I lost and so I've decided to start the Keto diet here soon. My husband lost over 50lbs since Jan/Feb on it, and I'm hoping that I can have even remotely similar weight loss. I know that I have to go low carb anyway so this will hopefully work out pretty well for me. We'll see. I've been on and off so many diets it's crazy.

6 month update!

Wow, have I been lacking in the update department! I cannot believe my little man is 25 1/2 weeks old (almost 6 months by date!!) He's rolling over now, back to front but while he has gone front to back, will not currently. He'll just lay there and scream until we move him back or pick him up. Silly little guy! He's taking 3-4oz of milk every 2-3 hours and sometimes sleeping through the night. But lately has been waking every hour or so until about 11pm. He is eating his first solid food this week... Avocado! The same food we started Abi on. He LOVES it! He has been ready to eat solids since about 4 months. He was showing all the signs but we were not comfortable starting so soon, especially with his eczema. So we waited. I'm glad because now he just devours his yummy food! Not sure what's next but it will probably be met with the same enthusiasm as the avocado. He didn't even really make any funny faces!