Happiness

Happiness is a snoozing baby on your chest...

5 weeks old!

My little monkey, sleeping peacefully (finally) in mommy's arms. Poor thing has been stuffed up for about a week now and has such a hard time sleeping. 

Abigail's stats so far!

So since Abi will be 5 weeks old tomorrow (holy crap!) I decided to post her up to date stats so that I can keep track.

Birth day!
3/23
weight 7lbs 8oz, length 20.5 inches
discharge weight 7lbs 1 oz

3/29
weight 7lbs 1oz

4/6
weight 7lbs 1oz

4/9
weight 7lbs 8oz

4/16
weight 8lbs 8oz

4/20
weight 9lbs

4/24
weight 9lbs 2.8oz length 21.5 inches

She's starting to fit into her 3 month clothes!

Pictures!

Just thought I'd add a few pics of my precious little Abi for all of you to enjoy! :)

Taken today, the onesie she has on is a 3 month! But Carters brand seems to have odd sizing..

Taken a few days ago.. Monday I think.. 

Sleepy little pumpkin!

First time I was able to get a shot of her eyes open!

First or second night home.. and 3rd onesie of the night!

While still in the hospital, I just love that face!

Rough morning

Just so you know, I've started my birth story.. it's a work in progress at the moment ;)..
Anyway Abi is usually a happy baby.. for the most part. She's 3 weeks 5 days by the way. :) Anyway, this morning she's been pretty fussy and hasn't really slept a whole lot after I put her down from one of her feedings. Right now she's been down about 20 minutes which is the longest she's been down since about 7am. I feel bad, I think she's going through a growth spurt but my boobs just can't keep up yet. I let her suckle until she's frustrated, I've been to see the lactation consultants twice and got some really good pointers. We're doing better, but my supply just isn't up to par. I'm afraid it never will be.. Abi has a weak suck to boot so that's not helping. But she does get milk.. just not enough. So this morning she was screaming around my nipple, freaking me out a little.. I hate when she cries! I'm supposed to be the one who calms her not makes her cry harder. So I gave her 2 oz of formula which calmed her for a little while. I just hate having to give her formula. I was pumping but that's not helping when I pump and she wakes up 5 minutes after I've finished and can hardly get any milk out.. so I have to give her the pumped stuff (usually only .5-1oz) and formula. I feel like a failure and it's driving me crazy. Breastfeeding is supposed to be a great bonding experience.. but it's just frustrating me and Abi and not to mention that I can't get into a comfortable position AND have Abi in a proper position for the life of me. It doesn't work. My back is killing me, I end up with a headache by the end of the day from the way I have to sit while breastfeeding... I DO NOT want to give up, but it's just so hard. I never knew this would be the hardest thing about being a mother (at least at this point).. She's not even a month old, I can't give up one of the best things I can do for her.